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[Jun. 3rd, 2007|12:42 am] |
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I just don't get it. Am I unattractive? Or am I just not dumb enough to keep a girl around? I feel like she just doesn't get it. I miss her so much and I want to be with her, but she needs to realize that I need to know she's going to be with me and only me. I can't believe I went back to her so many times. Especially this time... I feel like such a fool. I just want to be happy again. |
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[May. 23rd, 2006|06:43 pm] |
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She is all I feel. I'd do anything for her and I hope she realizes that. She says it's permanent, but I don't think I can bleed much longer. Life is dull. I hear that "you'll find someone else" from just about everyone, but I don't want to find anyone else. I'm pretty sure she's done. Done with dealing with my crap. I can only pray and pray AND PRAY that by trying to be the way I used to be she'll miss me, but I don't think she likes the way I used to act. I try to be my normal kidding self that usually makes everyone laugh and enjoy themselves, but it doesn't seem to phase her anymore. I feel like I have to try really hard just to get a giggle out of her or maybe we just have been at each other's throats so much that it's hard to make one another laugh. I love her. I think I love her more than I've loved anything or anyone. She knows me better than anyone in my family does and to lose someone closer to you than a family member is a crippling blow. This quote seems to fit the scenario perfectly, "so a simple phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain." My arms will always be open for her, for solace and for whatever she might need. There will always be a spot in my heart for her. |
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| Good old times. |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|08:50 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Crematory - Tears of Time | ] |
I remember when I used to be pretty damn popular on this garbage, but jeez it's just a shame how some things turn out. Well fuck you homos I'm outie. |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2005|11:09 am] |
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| | Danzig - Blood and Tears | ] |
I have a girlfriend. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|04:34 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Danzig - Devil's Plaything | ] |
This summer was pretty fucking lame. I found out that my really good friends happen to be 3 people, Ryan, Dave, and Christian. There is people that are on the highway of being my really good friends, but not completley there yet. For the most part I'm ignored by the people that claim to be my friends. This is all fine, because you dont really need a bunch of good friends. You'll be really lucky to get out of school with just one best friend. |
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| AY! |
[Jul. 18th, 2005|05:50 pm] |
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| |  giggly | ] |
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| | Lil John and the Eastside Boys - Get Low | ] |
Should I start doing this LJ thing again? |
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| FAG! |
[Apr. 29th, 2005|10:23 pm] |
My mom is here
BYE!
FUCKERS! |
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|04:51 pm] |
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MMM PAINKILLERS MMM! |
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[Dec. 17th, 2004|10:29 am] |
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HEY GUYS!!! Im in keyboarding class. WAKA WAKA!! Oh and my friend matt was just looking at me.. I think he wants me. I'm just kiddin. Bye. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|04:21 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Marilyn Manson - Tainted Love | ] |
Doctor: Have you taken painkillers?
Alicia: Yes.
Doctor: Have you taken so many where you have passed out?
Alicia: Yes.
Doctor: Do you kiss your ex-boyfriends bestfriend?
Alicia: Yes.
Doctor: Diagnosis, you're gay. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2004|08:37 pm] |
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| | Fuck it | ] |
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| | The Cure-Pictures of You | ] |
nigga do you know me, nigga do you owe me? Figured you could blow me? Well I'ma let this trigger fill you homey |
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[Dec. 8th, 2004|10:28 pm] |
Well, I think im gonna cut myself for now reason. And then I am going to ponder about death and how much I want to die. Then I am going to cry myself to sleep.
Goodnight. |
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[Dec. 7th, 2004|03:15 pm] |
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And there will be sorrow, no more. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 5th, 2004|01:01 am] |
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| | Misfits-Dr. Phibes Rises Again | ] |
| CHANCE |
| C |
is for |
Crazy |
| H |
is for |
Honest |
| A |
is for |
Adventurous |
| N |
is for |
Nerdy |
| C |
is for |
Cheesy |
| E |
is for |
Earthy |
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| No one cares dani. |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|11:10 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Misfits-Dust to Dust | ] |
FondlesWthClowns: Heyloooooooooo0oooo
StarWarsFreakX10: hey
StarWarsFreakX10: is lauren over there?
FondlesWthClowns: yeah dawgggg
FondlesWthClowns: this is sooooo krista
FondlesWthClowns: and dani is sitting behind me... butt ass naked
FondlesWthClowns: or not
StarWarsFreakX10: lol cool
FondlesWthClowns: im not naked
StarWarsFreakX10: what are you guys doin
FondlesWthClowns: having sex
StarWarsFreakX10: i sort of figured since you didnt say that
FondlesWthClowns: yeah and drinking and shooting ourselves up with 50 oz of heroine
FondlesWthClowns: nice job running ur mouth to steve
FondlesWthClowns: saying shit u dont even know
FondlesWthClowns: very VERY nice
StarWarsFreakX10: oh SHIT!
StarWarsFreakX10: did i say you are doin heroin
FondlesWthClowns: expecially about the "yeah u should just dump her if she doesnt trust u n all"
StarWarsFreakX10: my bad
FondlesWthClowns: no
FondlesWthClowns: u said that she was gonna be hanging out with pat and jared
FondlesWthClowns: u said it was pat and jareds weekend
FondlesWthClowns: dude
StarWarsFreakX10: i said they might go over
FondlesWthClowns: shut ur fucking trap especially if u know krista isnt gonna do nething wrong
StarWarsFreakX10: why the fuck do you care so much??
FondlesWthClowns: and steve will get pissed either way
StarWarsFreakX10: i was talking to steve
FondlesWthClowns: cuz steve bitches at her to the point she is scared to be here
FondlesWthClowns: yah and steve repeated it
StarWarsFreakX10: i said pat and jared might be there
FondlesWthClowns: u open ur mouth to much
StarWarsFreakX10: =-O
FondlesWthClowns: and u told steve to dump krista
StarWarsFreakX10: she doesnt even trust him
FondlesWthClowns: he doesnt trust her jack ass
StarWarsFreakX10: she said yeah hes probably fucking with all the girls at mbp as we speak
FondlesWthClowns: he has cheated onher
StarWarsFreakX10: okay then
StarWarsFreakX10: therefor iam right
StarWarsFreakX10: i dont think they should go out
FondlesWthClowns: shut the fuck up
StarWarsFreakX10: yup
StarWarsFreakX10: you are mad cause im right
FondlesWthClowns: u have no reason
FondlesWthClowns: no im mad cuz ur opening ur mouth for something that doesnt concern u
FondlesWthClowns: i dont want them together for what he does to her
StarWarsFreakX10: does it concern you??
FondlesWthClowns: u dont want them together because krista has a reason to not have full trust in him
FondlesWthClowns: YES! it fucking concerns me
FondlesWthClowns: he scares her away from my house
FondlesWthClowns: cuz he gets pissed off when she is over here
FondlesWthClowns: that concerns me
FondlesWthClowns: his mistrust leads to me and krista not being able to be around eachother
StarWarsFreakX10: damn.. now i know why blaine and charlie didnt want you
FondlesWthClowns: would u like to get more offtopic?
FondlesWthClowns: shoving in my face that im single really isnt proving your point
StarWarsFreakX10: uumm
StarWarsFreakX10: its pretty cold in my room
FondlesWthClowns: thank you prickface
FondlesWthClowns: for pointing out the 2 people i truely cared about
FondlesWthClowns: dont like me
FondlesWthClowns: but i already know
StarWarsFreakX10: mm hmm
StarWarsFreakX10: anytime
FondlesWthClowns: fat fuck |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2004|10:22 pm] |
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| | Daath-Child Says | ] |
You Are the Enthusiast |
7
You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life.
You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new.
Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy.
You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you.
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| Holy Hell. |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|10:08 pm] |
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| |  Holy shit. | ] |
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| | All Shall Perish-The Spreading Disease | ] |
Two teenagers goin over 100 mph..
Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it's not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die. |
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| Me and my dad fighting about a FUCK FUCKIN away message. |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|11:31 pm] |
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Cciementor: U there?
StarWarsFreakX10: yes
Auto response from Cciementor: I am currently away from the computer.
StarWarsFreakX10: your away message is still up
Cciementor: Im not mad at u just dont want u to use that kind of language...it makes u look STUPID and uneducated
Cciementor returned at 10:56:21 PM.
StarWarsFreakX10: it was part of a song
StarWarsFreakX10: its not like iam using it myself
Cciementor: Yeah I know but it reflects on the WHOLE family
StarWarsFreakX10: how so?
Cciementor: when people get your away message
StarWarsFreakX10: i doubt people think of my family when they see my away message
Cciementor: They think why do the roys and tippets let thier son act like this????
StarWarsFreakX10: dad you are the only adult on my list
Cciementor: I dont....nor does any one else need to be on your list to see your away message
Cciementor: ALL they need is your AIM screen name
Cciementor: and to send u a message when u are away
Cciementor: and that was the response they would get......NOT GOOD CHANCE!!!
Cciementor: I dont want my sons ro talk like that to ANYONE adult or not......IT REFLECTS on me and Mattie VERY BADLY!!!
Cciementor: PLEASE dont do that again!!
StarWarsFreakX10: Its not like i went around screaming FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Cciementor: OK
Cciementor: I see that u think your smart
Cciementor: Chance I LUV U but will talk to u latter!!!
StarWarsFreakX10: no it jsut bothers me that you think that you havent done anything wrong
StarWarsFreakX10: that hasnt reflected on the family
Cciementor: You obviously have NO respect for me as your father
StarWarsFreakX10: i do
Cciementor: What do mean of course I have done PLENTY wrong
Cciementor: Does what I do make it right for u.....or anyone else???
Cciementor: If I commit murder does that mean u can too???
StarWarsFreakX10: i didnt say that
Cciementor: ALL I am saying is dont use foul language like its a joke
StarWarsFreakX10: i wasnt using it like it was a joke!
Cciementor: IT REALLY does reflect on your family and U.
StarWarsFreakX10: i was tryin to make a point
Cciementor: IT makes u look like u have no class
Cciementor: what POINT??
Cciementor: Really I am saying try not to use foul language at all
StarWarsFreakX10: that i did nothing wrong and it does not reflect on the family at all i could understand if i was going around screaming or something but when its part of a song that i didnt even make i dont see anything wrong
Cciementor: I do from time to time but it is WRONG for me too
Cciementor: And I am trying to stop
Cciementor: ALL the time
StarWarsFreakX10: i hear you say it all the time
Cciementor: Yep
Cciementor: And its wrong
StarWarsFreakX10: like right when i came home you were like you like actin like an ass?
Cciementor: Tell u what lets stop using it from now on OK
Cciementor: I will and im asking u to stop also
StarWarsFreakX10: okay
Cciementor: It is wrong and stupid
Cciementor: and insults god very deeply
Cciementor: Mattie gets on me when i do it
StarWarsFreakX10: i dont see it happening
Cciementor: And i ALWAYS ask god to forgive me latter
Cciementor: Well say something to her next time and remind me
StarWarsFreakX10: no i mean you probably wont stop saying bad words
Cciementor: Im just saying its one thing to slip around the family but to do it on purpose in public is just not right!!
StarWarsFreakX10: Im not in public
Cciementor: Chance your aim account IS available to the PUBLIC
StarWarsFreakX10: mainly to my FRIENDS
Cciementor: Why are u disrespecting your father are u that mad at me??
StarWarsFreakX10: no not really
StarWarsFreakX10: dad i just dont like getting lexured over something so small
StarWarsFreakX10: so small that there is no point in even lexuring someone over it
Cciementor: CHANCE thats the point its NOT small!!!!!!
StarWarsFreakX10: i will try not to use that away message so much dad
Cciementor: No chance I am not asking u to not use that away message I am telling u not to
Cciementor: If u dont stop using those kinds of away messages and languge on the and i find out there will be consequences
StarWarsFreakX10: okay dad i might not do it on purpose though
StarWarsFreakX10: because its there and i click on really quick when i have to go downstairs or somethin
Cciementor: No Chance just change your away message
StarWarsFreakX10: well dad iam saying that i might forget sometimes because i have set on.. i guess you could say "hot key" or whatever and i click it when iam in a hurry
Cciementor: DO u understand I want to change your away message RIGHT now
StarWarsFreakX10: I dont know how
StarWarsFreakX10: i can make different ones
Cciementor: AIM blaine and he will tell u how
Cciementor: he is online
StarWarsFreakX10: i will think of some new away messages that i can put up
StarWarsFreakX10: but i have no clue how to delete one that i already saved
StarWarsFreakX10: it doesnt mean i have to use it
StarWarsFreakX10: do you want me to do that?
Cciementor: No I want u to change your current away message
StarWarsFreakX10: dad look
StarWarsFreakX10: see iam not away at the moment
StarWarsFreakX10: and if iam i can just use a different one
StarWarsFreakX10: than the one you dont like
StarWarsFreakX10: Deal?
Cciementor: Delete any that use foul language thats all i want u to do
Cciementor: U there?
Auto response from StarWarsFreakX10: Ya either drop tha hits like De La O or get tha fuck off tha commode
StarWarsFreakX10: i cant do it
StarWarsFreakX10: i just tryed
Cciementor: chance is blaine helping u??
StarWarsFreakX10: there is nothing he can do
Cciementor: done?
StarWarsFreakX10: yes
StarWarsFreakX10: im done
Cciementor: ok
Cciementor: so log off so i can test it
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
StarWarsFreakX10: what are you doing?
Cciementor: log off
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: exit aim chance
Cciementor: test
Cciementor: test
StarWarsFreakX10: dad you cant test someone to see if someones away messages are gone
StarWarsFreakX10: look
StarWarsFreakX10: i will show you
StarWarsFreakX10: ready?
Cciementor: yes u can just set tha away button on
Auto response from StarWarsFreakX10: AND FOR HER EVERYONE CRIED
StarWarsFreakX10: there
Cciementor: better
Cciementor: now
Cciementor: dont change it back
Cciementor: or there will be serious consequences
Cciementor: I PROMISE
StarWarsFreakX10: okay
StarWarsFreakX10: well im gonna go
Cciementor: OK
Cciementor: LUV U chance
StarWarsFreakX10: love you too
StarWarsFreakX10: blockage
Cciementor signed off at 11:30:14 PM.
Tee hee hee I blocked my own dad. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|09:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Intensify | ] |
I had to put this one in there too... :-/ |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|08:09 pm] |
Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"
Playful Kiss
The playful kiss is about you having fun and not needing to have feelings for that person. You just go with the flow!
The people in this picture look like 2 guys. |
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